Recession has hit if server jobs are rigid- $2.13 hr. for chrissakes!!!! FUCK YOU!

I've had it- it's official!!! I work for a corporate restaurant p/t & bust my ass daily & still get shit from mgt. I was told tonite I'm a leader & more is expected of me but all I seem to get is an ass-chewing instead of "good work". Where's my fucking positive reinforcement????? Goes a long way, you thankless bitches!!!! Very disgruntled!!!! This is my side job. I'm a nurse by trade & don't get this much shit @ my BIG GIRL job. Lighten up, fuckers- READY TO QUIT!!!! You can take you're $2.13 hr. & shove it straight up your militant ass, LB!!!!! GO STRAIGHT TO HELL, BITCH, YOU LIAR!!!!

Now that's all said, here's some shit I like...

Urban Word of the Day:
Douche chill- implies a situation that is very awkward & uncomfortable for all parties. Also means someone who sucks at life (LB), therefore making everyone around them uncomfortable

Scorpio- sensual, sexy and mesmerizing. Loyal & sweet to the very end. Highly intelligent & have a quick wit. Adventurous, curious & very loving! MY HUBBY!!!!

Gemini:
*If aspects of your day seem beyond your control, don't waste your energy trying to change the course of events. You might believe everything will be better once it's going the way you want. You are more adaptable than you realize, so don't let your feelings of insecurity overrule your common sense. Ultimately, you'll have more fun floating with the prevailing currents than attempting to alter their direction.

*You can act confidently but you might not really know what you're doing now. Fortunately, you are able to catch on so quickly that it seems as if you are stepping on familiar ground. Be careful, you can get caught in your own cleverness if you get too cocky. Thinking fast on your feet is fine, just don't pretend you're an expert.

*Measuring yourself against others isn't necessarily productive, yet it may be hard to avoid such behavior today as you strive to get a better perspective on what you should do next. Doing a personal assessment is tricky business b/c your greatest assets may elude quantification (give quantity to). Give yourself permission to change your mind often but don't resist your tendency toward intensity now, even if others are at ease with your volatility (tending to break into open violence- nothing postal, just able to opening vent feelings).

Last addendum: ANHEDONIA: loss of interest & pleasure. This is how I feel about my job as a server. At one time it was my release & I enjoyed it but now I find this job to be more of a burden & prison sentence- FUCK THAT SHIT!!!!

Gathering information, wanna share it...

From Urban Word of the Day:
Thumb strength- energy required to write a text
Clapathy- when an audience grows weary of clapping, either at ceremony or musical performance
MIRF- acronym for MOM I'D RUN FROM. Opposite of MILF- mom definitely NOT want to do!
Textrovert- feels an increased sense of bravery in texting as opposed to in person, will often only say what really feel over text msgs.
Flesh forks- bare fingers
Crop dusting- farting while walking, walking while farting (busted!!!!)
Deja moo- feeling have heard this bull before- one of my personal favorites!!!!!

3 Major Types of Thinking Errors:
1) Undervaluing oneself, low self-esteem stemming from belief one is inadequate & of little value
2) Negative view of one's current experience. Depressed people percieve self as unable to achieve goals & experience pleasure
3) Pessimism- belief situation will not ever improve

Reading from depression text...

Hypo (mild manic) Manic Personality/Cyclothymic Personality

Patterns of Mild Manic Depression:
Experience only mild forms of both symptom extremes.
Alternate in rhythmic & continuing way, diagnosed as cyclothymic personality.
Up periods never exceed hypomania which blocks gross mental impairment or psychiatric hospitalization.
Ups & downs may follow with interruption or separated by normal intervals that may last for months.
Often referred to as "moody" (alternation of mood).
Occasionally some individuals are persistently hypomanic for the majority of his lifetime without swings into depression.

Hypomanic Personality individuals are considered impressive, productive and creative.

The appearance of depression is evident during high productivity as a result of the disease-incited increased level of drive.

Learning a lot lately. Loving the 3rd shift down time!!!

One thing I have become acutely aware of is how completely ignorant the NP is at my job. My job responsibility requires me to type in her RIDICULOUS progress notes. I honestly pity her patients!!! Another frightening fact is she's an instructor at quite a reputable nursing school- sorry future nurses of TN, your teacher is a COMPLETE DUMB ASS!!! Feels good to get that shit off my chest. I've been typing her notes for some time this morning & I'm ready to pull my hair out!!!!! UUUUUGGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!! Now that I'm done with my necessary venting, I want to use my blog to share my personal stuff: what's going on with me, to document some facts & witty sayings I feel are valuable & basically to use this site to say exactly whatever the fuck I want!!! With that so eloquently stated, this is what I've found interesting lately...

Horoscope:
Gemini- you are likely to withdraw from social interactions and spend more time by yourself. Don't panic if those around you try to tease you into believing you are a social misfit. They just don't understand why you must recharge your emotional batteries before heading out and doing another round.

Horoscopes, my new passion!

Whatever held you back recently has changed enough that it's no longer the problem that it was. Surprisingly, the restraint may originate within you, even if it manifested externally. But try not to get lost in philosophical explorations; there's too much that must get done. Control your thoughts by controlling your actions. Eliminating non-essential activities can quickly get your day back on track.

This horoscope has a lot of meaning to me right now. I've got something that's really bothering me but I can't seem to put my finger on it. I have a TON of love for my husband but I feel some animosity toward him. I find I'm jealous and distrustful of him more than usual - not good! I don't know if something's going on or if I'm so tired I'm just turning into a full-fledged psycho????!!!!! Maybe both. It has put me in an uncomfortable place & I want to get myself out of it. I wish I could get down to the core of what's gnawing at my guts. I hate feeling stuck in an unsavory misery I want to call a valid emotion b/c I don't feel there's much validity in what I feel as my reality. I NEED SOME SLEEP & SOME MENTAL HEALTH DAYS, DAMMIT!!!!

Just some funnies... light mood this morning (FINALLY!)

Found on Urban Word of the Day:

Black Friday- The day after Thanksgiving when stores decide to open at the asscrack of dawn to start Christmas sales. Most people fall for this ploy and wake up at 4 am to fight over mothers and cheap presents.
*My dear husband can certainly relate for he was slaving at the mall on Black Friday- BLESS HIS HEART!

Thanksgiving Pants- Pants that are worn in anticipation of eating a huge meal (i.e. Thanksgiving dinner). These pants usually boast an elastic waist to allow some give for that third helping of sweet potato pie.