Not much to share...

I haven't posted in awhile but had a lot happen in the short time span I was MIA. Feeling extremely apprehensive with my financial situation. Working 2 jobs, 5-7 days ea. job & going to school. Can't get ahead! UUUUUGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!

It's not easy bein' green...

First of all, I'd like to personally thank everyone for the positive feedback I received from my previous post. It's a risk I take by disclosing I had a cocaine addiction & I appreciate the tender, sensitive & inspiring remarks- for the 1st time in many years, I feel it's ok to tell all who I truly am. I'm so exhausted with trying to mold myself into who I believe would be acceptable to this group & that, there's so much more to me. Such as, did you know I like to read books & stop in mid-sentence to jot down a word I'm not quite sure of the complete meaning? I like to get animated when I watch some mindless reality tv & try to explain a healthier scenario to handle the on-air drama??? I can't even keep a cap on my drama & I'm trying to "fix" the bitches on reality tv? WTF????? I like to look up words/diagnoses as I'm charting at work? Mental health fascinates me; the sick attract the sick. How weird is it I've chosen to donate my whole body to UT's (Knoxville) Forensics Dept. for study at the "Body Farm"? I'm not your traditional girl, but I've got quite the lively imagination!!!! I'm engrossed with creative outlets, yet I struggle to realize my creative outlet. What does God have in store for me???? One thing I feel the need to clear up is my posting status. I had a "I'll never fucking talk to you again, douchebag" controversy with one of Andy's friends. As it may initially appear as I'm specifically trying to smear Andy's bad deeds all over the net (which I can't say it isn't always the case), but I also do the "tell all" techniques where my misdeeds are concerned as well. I use my FB & MySpace, Twitter, etc. as my emotional sounding board b/c it's gets pretty fucking old angrily dishing all my troubles to my family, friends & co-workers. At least with the net, you guys don't actually audibly hear the darkness in my voice as I am reeling through my painful realities. I'm able to recharge through your comments & accept full responsibility for what I choose to post. It's a free world, comment honestly. However, where Dean B. was concerned, I felt in his pursuit to protect his beloved friend, he would excuse Andy's behavior & spin it around to make it my fault or simply allow him to engage in said behavior- WHAT-FUCKING-EVER! I don't want an arsenal of enemies, but I've reached a point in my life I only want genuine, healthy (healthier) folks in my circle of friends. As I've said before & passionately stand by this declaration, I LOVE PHILIP ANDREW HILL, my husband... always have, always will. What's he's done to me, I'm also guilty of such selfish offenses. I'm a cheater, liar & bathed in a deep sea of denial until I lost my ass with my alcohol & cocaine addiction. It was the best thing to experience, although it was unapparent to me at the time, but now I feel the emotional destruction one feels with deceit & focus on others. It fucking hurts & I'm ashamed I EVER participated in such cruel activities. I treated my 1st husband like shit, I broke his heart with my selfish excursions. I have since apologized once I got out of the routine of blaming him & making it his fault as to why I cheated on him time after time. NO ONE DESERVES THAT & I've made an earnest commitment to never be as selfish again & change my behavior. Once again, thank you for your encouragement, please keep it coming for I desperately need your strength via comments to pursue my mission of enhancing my marriage in a Godly, appropriate way!!!! Love you all!!!! Nikki G-Hill

Lost little girl

I feel so lost & confused. What were my big plans for my life? I know I had several. I've always been a big thinking dreamer, it's just the follow-through I've struggled with. I have a great number of things to be sincerely grateful for: my husband who loves me no matter what, 2 beautiful boys who drive me crazy but love me despite myself. I've overcome cocaine addiction, now focusing on sobriety (just God & me working on this one). I'm employed with 2 jobs and going to school to bridge from LPN to RN. I have a mother who just won't give up on me, no matter how big of an ass I am & my father loves me the best he can. On the average scale rating of fatherhood, he sucks, but I'm proud of my father's wisdom & accomplishments. Not bad for a chronic alcoholic. He amazes me as to how he can function on the extreme amounts of alcohol he consumes daily. He can turn up Crown Royal as if he's chugging lemonade. I need to recall that image next time I want to get hammered. For me, alcohol is an escape, and boy, I AM RUNNING!!! I'm quickly approaching my big 4-0. Well, 4 yrs from now, but who's counting???? I feel a lot of shame because I feel as though I've wasted so many yrs of my life getting loaded. I was emotionally unavailable for my loved ones, my boys especially, & I'm trying so fucking hard to make my life seem meaningful. However, I've always been programmed to believe one's value is based on how much is earned financially---BULLSHIT!!!! I need to focus on what's the real value: how do I treat others around me, do I love my family unconditionally & am I living an honest life. That's what I have to answer for when I meet Jesus. That fact scares the shit out of me for I'm overwrought with heavy guilt for my past indiscretions. I have asked forgiveness from my current husband, ex-husband, children & family members (esp my mother) but this burden has continued to consume me. I assume this is the reason I'm working too damn hard to "make something of my life". What's my calling? What the fuck has God planned for my life? I only have 1 shot at this life & I'm exhausted with being a fuck up!!!!

Positive Daily Affirmations...

Affirmations are positive thoughts or statements about some outcome you wish to achieve (e.g. wealth, success or health). Instead of negative self-talk, you can use positive daily affirmations to direct what your focus will be. You can conquer your past and present fears and enjoy your circumstances or create the desired future through affirmation. This techniques guides you to redirect your values, help you to formulate goals and prepare you for any situation. Sounds like a good plan to me...

Uplifting wittisms...

Personal satisfaction comes only when I rise above the approval of others...

Fun should be a way of life, not something we have from time to time...

In the long run, none of this really matters much, so there's no need to get ours panties in such a wad!!!!

Casting all your care upon Him, for He careth for you...

The Lord is my strength and my shield, my heart trusts in Him...

Love the Lord with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind...

It's not the large things that send one to the madhouse; it's the continuing series of small tragedies...

Ain't it tha truth...

Excuses allow the almighty finger of blame to point away from yourself. Reasons force the said finger to point the blame in the direction it really should be... IN YOUR OWN FACE!!!

Have the courage to begin, the willingness to risk failure & the drive to continue doing whatever it takes to get the damn thing done!!!

Feeling "uncomfortable" creates a window to change...

GET A PLAN* KNOW HOW YOU WANT TO DO IT* GET MOTIVATED TO ACCOMPLISH IT!

Become whatever you have the potential to become & remain willing to dedicate the time & effort it requires to become what you have a talent for!

Most shadows in life are created by me standing in my own sunshine

It's not about the destination, it's about the journey to your destination. ENJOY the experience in anticipation of the next level...

Personal satisfaction comes only when I rise above the approval of others
Fun should be a way of life, not something I have from time to time
In the long run, none of "this" really matters much anyway; there's no need to get YOUR DAMN PANTIES IN A WAD!!!!

Just for today... Ego boosters!

Today, I am truthful in all of my daily activities
Today, I will choose to be alive to enjoy the everyday adventure of living
Today, I will acknowledge my feelings

Don't overreact by withdrawing from your current activity too quickly. Even if you're not fully comfortable, you'll be happier if you maintain contact with others throughout the day...

A happy heart makes the face cheerful...

Above all else, guard your heart for it's the wellspring of life!

Actions are the results of thoughts and beliefs...

Every little think you think, say & do has a major impact on the outcome of your life...

Knowledge speaks, wisdom listens...

Listening is the biggest part of communication...

The things you resist the most are the very things you most need to hear...

What you think of me is none of my business!!!!!

Quotes, quotes, quotes...

Don't ever expect anyone to 100% commit themselves to supporting a project, direction or practice unless they had input into creating it...
*Employee involvement is creating an environment in which people have an impact on decisions and actions that affect their jobs. Team building occurs when the manager knows when to tell, sell, consult, join or delegate to staff. As an example, you almost never want to "tell" an adult what to do unless a safety factor is involved. Adults resent being told and find ways to circumvent command and control leadership. For employee involvement and empowerment, both team building and delegation rule...

I will waste not even a precious second today in anger, hate, jealousy or selfishness. I know the seeds I sow I will harvest, because every action, good or bad, is always followed by an equal reaction. I will only plant good seeds this day...

You will become as small as your controlling desire; or as great as your dominant aspiration...

An idealist believes the short run doesn't count. A cynic believes the long run doesn't matter. A realist believes what is done or left undone in the short run determines the long run!!!!!

The will to win is important, but the will to prepare is vital...

The difference between great people and everyone else is: great people create their lives actively, while everyone else is created by their lives, passively waiting to see where life takes them next. The difference between the two is the difference between living fully and just existing...

Expect the best, plan for the worst and prepared to be surprised!

I can give you a six-word formula for success: Think things through, then follow through!

Denigrate: to attack the character or reputation of; defame
Highhanded: acting/done in a bold, arbitrary way

Whatever is not yours, abandon it. When you have abandoned it, that'll lead to your welfare and happiness...

Who gossips to you will gossip of you

Bit o' Wisdoms...

Don't be afraid to give your best to what seemingly are small jobs. Every time you conquer one it makes you that much stronger. If you do the little jobs well, the big ones tend to take care of themselves...

I not only use all the brains that I have, but all that I can borrow...

We're here on the planet only once, might as well get a feel for the place...

Many people like to think they'll find balance after they find success. In reality, achieving balance IS success...

The most important single ingredient in the formula of success is knowing how to get along with others...

Mental health tidbits of: the power of thought & other various things...

Cognitive Distortion: a thought process, often vocalized, that distorts what is real in order to justify one's feelings and actions. It includes minimizing, generalizing and justifying. Also known as "wrong thinking", "thinking error" or "stinking thinking".

Cognitive Restructuring: the process of modifying thinking, both its premises and assumptions. Most cognitive therapies operate on the basic assumption that thoughts cause feelings and feelings cause behaviors. These therapies attempt to incorporate some aspect of challenging, and thereby changing the misperceptions, stereotypical beliefs and cognitive distortions that lead to unhealthy behaviors. The goal is to challenge the validity and usefulness of the maladaptive thinking patterns and gradually substitute more adaptive ones.

Boundary: an imaginary wall/barrier that keeps certain feelings safe, comfortable and protected. This may pertain to anything private, special or personal; can be a thing, place, thought or feeling; can be physical, emotional or social.

Active Listener: one who demonstrates understanding, interest and acceptance. The process of active listening conveys to the communicator a respectful forum.

Indications of Active Listening

• appropriate amounts of eye contact
• nodding of head in affirmation
• open body language
• showing attentiveness

As the Greer-Hill Turns...: Gemini time...

As the Greer-Hill Turns...: Gemini time...

Gemini time...

You might not be sure about your new direction at work but don't let that stop you from showing up with a positive attitude and doing the best you can. Your sense of identity could be muddled now by all the amazing possibilities that you see around you. The problem is that turning a dream into reality isn't as straightforward as you think it should be. Take it easy on yourself; your path will clear in time for you to arrive at your designated destination...

One voice tells you to go for it while another one says to wait. You are left in a very familiar place of indecision, yet you are able to justify whatever path you take. Nevertheless, you still don't know which is right. Oddly enough, it may not matter for your current answer is not likely your final one, no matter which you choose. So, don't make a big deal out of what's happening now...

You might have so much to say today that you don't know where to begin. Unfortunately, you could overwhelm others with your false sense of urgency. It's not that your perceptions are incorrect, it's just that you could react so quickly that your friends and family don't know what to think. Take a few deep breaths and calm yourself down. Let your emotions run their course before you open your mouth...

Although you are working through some self-imposed boundary issues today, you are on the verge of opening up to your friends more. Your new way of relating to others can bring a refreshing wave of change to your relationships and social life. Even if you go through extreme mood swings over the next few days, you'll come out on the other side ready to have more fun in your life...

It's challenging to be open about your current financial fears, whether they are real or imagined. You don't want others to judge you, so your tendency is to keep your anxiety to yourself. Your friends and family will probably sense something is wrong, but they might not bring it up because they know there's no immediate fix for your situation. You don't have to share all the details but letting those close to you know about your concerns can lead to support you didn't expect...

As the Greer-Hill Turns...: Stuff, that's right... My stuff...

As the Greer-Hill Turns...: Stuff, that's right... My stuff...

Stuff, that's right... My stuff...

Serenity: I'm asking for calmness, composure and inner peace in my life. This enables me to transcend my ego, to think straight and to govern myself properly

Acceptance: I am resigning myself to conditions as they are right now. I choose to live in the now, my present moment

Courage: a quality which enables me to deal with the problems and realities of life; a determination to stand my ground on all issues, pleasant or otherwise; a strength of my spirit to face and handle the negative; fearlessness in the practice of faith, humility and honesty

I am asking for help to make the right decisions, everything is not the way I would like it to be in my life. I must continue to face reality and constantly work toward my continued growth and progress.

I am asking for the ability to rise above my ego and form sound judgments about myself and my life. I will then use my ability to ask for guidance from God, others and myself.

I want to be able to understand clearly truths of fact. I want to see things differently in my life so I will be more aware of myself and others. I need to sense a definite value in loving over being selfish.

I will start a new life each day. I will put the old mistakes away and start anew each day. God ALWAYS offers me a fresh start.

Today, I will reflect the image that I would like others to see...

As to my problems: I accept the responsibility, take charge and do the best I can...

I am a competent person and have much to give... Enthusiasm is my daily exercise...

All love given returns, I will learn to know that others love me.

The past is gone forever... No longer will I be victimized by the past, I am a new person, willing to learn and grow.

The fundamental object of life is emotional and spiritual growth... Daily I put my life into proper order, knowing which are the priorities... Life can be ordinary or great, greatness is mine by a conscious effort...

Sharing is caring, dammit!!!!

Set reasonable goals. Grandiose ambitions lead to discouragement. Just try to get small stuff done each day...

*Encouraged reading: "Suze Orman's 9 Steps to Financial Freedom", "The Millionaire Next Door" & "The Disease to Please" by Harriet Braker; note: People pleasers are addicts for they are addicted to approval!!!!!

HOPE is grounded in uncertainty. FAITH is grounded in absolute certainty. Give up hope! Instead of hope, have FAITH!!!! Forget about hope & doubt; have faith & certainty: STEP OUT BOLDLY!!!!

Erase guilt & regret: you can't change what's been done by feeling guilty about it...

Forgive yourself! Learn from experience, act differently next time. At that point, all the bullshit is over...

Worry is a waste of time & guilt serves no purpose. Both are a misuse of my imagination. If you change your focus, you'll change your results.

You're not serving anyone when you spread yourself too thin. Say NO to the things that keep me from saying YES to what I really want to do in life. The things I choose to say YES to will get full attention & will do a better job at those things in order to serve everyone/me much better!

**HONESTY, INTEGRITY, CHRISTIANITY, INTELLIGENCE, SUCCESS, etc. don't need to be said, bragged about or crammed down some one's throat. You don't even have to talk about them... PROOF'S ALWAYS IN THE ACTION, not the words. RESULTS ARE EVERYTHING & THEY NEVER LIE!!!!

Actions say what you believe & the kind of person you are much more than your words.

Common sense is no longer common. Neither is common knowledge or common courtesy.

Good read, pt. deux: "Autobiography of a Face", Lucy Grealy

Thoughts are creative & control your outcome
Trust your feelings
Passion is a necessity for a happy life
Choose your lifestyle first; don't let your lifestyle be the result of what's left over every month
Don't manage time, manage priorities

God doesn't reward us based on our goodness. Goodness is the reward!

What do fundamentalists & lobotomies have in common????
They are both NO BRAINERS!!!!

What's the last thing a redneck says before he dies????
"Hey y'all, watch this!!!!!!".

Funnyisms...

Blind Transfer: when someone calls your office phone and you transfer them to a random number from a department you chose just because you either can't find the correct number or you don't feel like looking it up

EX-HOLE: your asshole ex-husband, ex-boyfriend or just plain ex. It's a phrase used to refer to a person you used to date that you can't stand

Alcoholics and drug addicts are the only people on earth who refuse to give a life of failure without a fight!

The only thing we take away from this world is what we gave away

Treatment center: a place you go & pay $15,000 to find out recovery meetings are free!!!

If God were small enough to be understood He wouldn't be big enough to be God!!!

Resentments are like stray cats; if you don't feed them they'll go away

I often obsessively pursue feeling good, no matter how bad it makes me feel

I didn't think I had any obsessions until I started thinking about it. Then, it was all I could think about!

If God brings you to it He'll bring you through it!!!

If you're not happy with what you have, what makes you think you'll be happy with more????

People who judge don't matter, those who matter don't judge!

My net worth is not my self worth!

It's when you act in faith that you eventually have it!

If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans

Never regret growing old, it's a privileged denied to many!

You won't learn much from people that agree with you

Non- alcoholic beer is for non-alcoholics!

When you don't face reality, reality faces you!

You will be rich when you know you have enough

Learn from the mistakes from others, you may not live long enough to make them all yourself

Relax, God didn't save you from drowning just to beat you up on the beach!!!!

I can't do His way my way... I have held many things in my hand & lost them all but whatever I have placed in God's hands I still possess

Critical thinking fun facts...

Critical thinking assists with the development of one's ability to evaluate and then discuss choices/alternatives you may face. Once the critical thinking process is complete, one will discover there are, in fact, not just one, but several equally effective alternatives from which a decision may arise.

SIX BASIC CRITICAL THINKING SKILLS:
1) Observe & question
2) Classify
3) Compare
4) Summarize
5) Hypothesize
6) Evaluate & make decision

Stinking-thinking practiced by the chronic "people pleaser":
"I'll compromise for you"
"I'll over commit for you"
"I'll let you limit my success"

Wisdom from the TWINS- Gemini tellin' it...

You may feel smarter today, as if a magical potion somehow added twenty points to your IQ. Don't get so enamored with your ability to think your way through any problem for rational thinking can be a trap of its own. Instead of relying on logic, let your intuition take you on a ride so you can see a different path into your future.

You make several attempts to approach someone with your story today but it's frustrating when others don't seem to care about the same things that are important to you. Don't waste your time and energy licking your psychological wounds if you feel rejected now. Instead, focus on the journey ahead. There's no place in your life for negative thinking, visualize positive results.

You can be quite productive today if you can overcome your feelings of restlessness. When the pace of events slow down, your thoughts speed up and they can get you into hot water as you look to make some mischief. Be careful what you wish for; if you go looking for trouble, you just might find more than you expect.

You might feel like a mental ninja warrior today but every thought you throw into a conversation is washed aside by someone else. You may feel ineffectual, as if your ideas can't quite gel. It's no fun when you can't blend your many trains of thought into one coherent knockout punch! Instead of growing frustrated and then retreating, stay aware that your feelings of being "off" are temporary and a more positive attitude will return in a few days.

Instead of putting up a smokescreen of illusion, set your boundaries by telling others what you can and can't do

WTF, I enclose what I want...

"Sometimes you win, sometimes you loose. Don't be an asshole in either situation".

Essential words for a harmonious relationship- "I'm sorry" and "You're right".

"When you make a mistake, make amends immediately for it's easier to eat crow while it's still warm".

"Never pass up a chance to pee".
AMBIGUOUS: open to or having several meanings

"Remember always that you have not only the right to be an individual, you have an obligation to be one"-- Eleanor Roosevelt

Magnanimous- free from mean or petty feelings/acts, noble in mind or soul

Conocimiento: knowledge

LAISSEZ-FAIRE: letting people do as they please

Is this blog in proper working order now????

I've tried to post 2 new blogs since the 11th & have been kicked off twice. Almost scared to get on here but hey, I'm a risk taker, here goes...

Part of living a happy life is emotional honesty- being able to say when we've been hurt, when we love someone or care about someone. Without this emotional honesty, we have to repress our feelings, sometimes feeling victimized & unappreciated. Others can't reciprocate or respond to our feelings if we never let them know what they are. Even if we can't obtain perfection in this business of emotional honesty, can we resolve to at least strive for progress, to take one small risk today, to take one small step towards intimacy today????

Today I can either think about all the things I wish I had and want to do and hope that God will do them for me OR I can DO all the things I think I should do & know that God will give me the right results.

Is it any wonder????

Live life at all times with INTEGRITY!

Gemini: You can visualize how great this year could be if only you're able to work through those issues that still anchor you to your past. Although you might not share your fears with anyone, they can still because for worry. It's incumbent on you to slow everything down long enough so you can put your ingenuity to practical use.

"All the people I ever admired & respected led balanced lives- studying hard, partying hard & being involved in activities & getting a decent amount of sleep each night. I believe it's the only logically defensible way of doing things".

The only way to make a relationship that's been violated is to work toward establishing a new trust based on a fresh commitment.

In conflict, silence feels easier than than having conversations focused on dealing with a problem. SILENCE is rarely your friend when attempting to establish/maintain/heal a broken relationship.

SCREAM!!!!!! This is what passionate people do to effectively express themselves.

Sex is the coolest thing on the planet & today's society has done it's best to make it wrong & dirty. If you're not sweating during sex then you're doing something WRONG!!!!
"Is sex dirty? Only if it's done right!!!"--Woody Allen
sex=respect
responsibility
safety

How can I give others my best if I don't believe I have anything wonderful to offer????

*Blind trust is dangerous* When you create a life you've always wanted, you'll be criticized*

"So long as you are still worried about what others think of you, you're owned by them!".

"Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds"

URBAN WORD OF THE DAY:
textually frustrated- takes too long to reply, leaving you waiting...
New Year's Eve- the one night of the year when getting drunk and making a fool of your self is not optional, it's mandatory!
Christmas bogus- receiving nothing from employer for Christmas
resolution rush- folks swarming the gym in the weeks after New Years. This act tends to subside quite quickly (especially when it pertains to me!)

BIG 5 PERSONALITY...

Five Fundamental Dimensions of Personality:
It's all about me, bitches!!!!

Estimate Jungian Type- alternative personality framework used by tests where types, not traits, are used; test used for personal development

OPENNESS: Trait, 75%. Prefer novelty (new & unique) v. convention (standard procedure). Aware of feelings but doesn't get carried away with imagination. Embraces change when necessary but resistant when feels it's not wise. Beauty is important but not everything.

CONSCIENTIOUSNESS: Trait, 50%. Prefer organized/flexible approach in life. Spontaneous & fun; likes to do unexpected things to make life more interesting. Not completely unreliable but known to slip up on occasion (AMEN!).

EXTRAVERSION: Trait, 100%. Enjoys company & excitement & stimulation seeker. Constantly energetic & active. Aims to be the center of attention at social occasions. Asserts self when in groups & usually says YES---Ain't it tha truth!!!!

AGREEABLENESS: Trait, 56%. This is the way I express my opinions & manage relationships. People can find me difficult to get along with when we first meet b/c I can be suspicious of one's motives. Overtime, you will warm to me & me to you but this doesn't stop me telling you HOW IT IS!!!!

NEUROTICISM: Trait, 69%. This measures my emotional stability-ha! What emotional stability???? This measures the way I cope with & respond to life's demands. I tend to be more self-conscious, coming across as one who finds it hard not to get caught up by anxious/stressful situations. I'm in touch with my own feelings, sometimes too much so!

According to the Jungian Typology, my personality type is...
ENFP: Extraverted Intuitive Feeling Perceiving
*initiators of change, keenly perceptive of possibilities
*energizes & stimulates others through contagious enthusiasm.
*prefers start-up phase of project/relationship
*tireless in pursuit of new-found interests
*able to anticipate needs of others & offer needed help & appreciation
*brings liveliness & fun to aspects of life
*best in situations that are fluid & changing which allow me to express my creativity & use charisma
*tends to idealize people & find disappointment when reality fails to fulfill my expectations
*easily frustrated if certain project requires a great deal of follow-up or attention to detail

BINGO, THAT ABOUT SUMS ME UP!!!!

utterly random...

You have been rather somber lately, pondering the complexity of your relationships and how to get what you want without turning your life inside out. It's even possible that you have been stuck, unable to figure out how to turn the next corner. Luckily your spirits will lift because you can feel some movement within your imagination, which allows you to begin to clarify what's ahead.

From the movie, "Network" and posthumously recognizing Peter Finch, "I'm mad as hell & I'm not going to take it anymore!".

Complacency- so used to getting bad service that it's become the norm. RUE- regret
Credo "seller beware" : treat me badly & live with the consequences of bad behavior by having me tell everyone exactly what kind of service I received. You loose your power if you cuss or scream & DON'T GIVE UP POWER WHEN COMPLAINING!

Policies are created that are absurd, I think decision-makers at certain companies were on crack when were written!!!!
Don't expect others to make you rich if you're keeping them broke!!!!

Stress comes from knowing what's right & doing what's wrong!
IMPLEMENT NOW, PERFECT LATER!!!

Be on time, there's never an excuse to be late...

Knowledge is not power, the implementation of knowledge is power!!!
It's impossible to grow without risk- don't worry too much about making the right decision, just make a decision & then make it the right decision!!!

Change is inevitable, growth's optional- what you resist will persist. Don't concern yourself with being liked, BE RESPECTED!
Keep it simple if it feels complicated: STOP, EVALUATE, SIMPLIFY & BEGIN AGAIN...

Never mistake activity for achievements. It's gotten to the point where everyone has rights & no one has responsibilities. PACIFIER: enables one in need, the one who believes life sucks, and tells him it's okay & there are plenty of conditions that are beyond his control that led to his life sucking in the first place. In essence, the pacifier coats the pussy in a shell that serves no real purpose than to make it harder for the "conflicted" to face the REAL TRUTH!!!

Affirmation without implementation is self-delusion. "Don't go around saying the world owes you a living; the world owes you nothing, it was here first"- M. Twain

PSEUDO-WORKING- looks & feels like working hard. D/T lack of focus & concentration, one doesn't actually accomplish much!
TNT: Today, not tomorrow!!!
"I'm the guy that gets shit done"

More shit, just cause. It's my blog, dammit!!!!

"Style is being yourself on purpose"- I love this one!!!!

"Discover your uniqueness & learn to exploit it in the service of others & you're guaranteed success, happiness & prosperity"

"Don't let your mouth write a check that your butt can't cash"- hehehe!!!!

"People who need help rarely appreciate the help or do anything with it. If you NEED anything, don't bother. If you WANT something, LET'S ROLL"!!!!!- word!!!!

Horoscopes of interest.... HAPPY 2009!!!

You have been rather somber lately; pondering the complexity of your relationships and how to get what you want without turning your life inside out. It's even possible that you have been stuck, unable to figure out how to turn the next corner. Luckily, your spirits lift today because you can feel some movement within your imagination, which allows you to begin to clarify what's ahead.

You might even surprise yourself today by your ability to stick with a particular feeling, even if there are easier courses of action available to you. You aren't interested in simplicity now; you want to touch the depth of experience that has been eluding you. Fortunately, exciting thoughts accompany your inner journey, stimulating your curiosity and feeding your desire to learn more about yourself.

You may not be ready to share your fears with others today because they believe you are the one who is naturally okay with change. However, the current uncertainty may be more than you expected and you would rather be experiencing more stability. Don't worry about living up to anyone's idea of who you are. Surprise them by simply being yourself and speaking from your heart.

There's a whole new inner dimension unfolding and it can detract from what you should be doing. This is not about closing down your feelings; it's about analyzing them so you know which ones matter enough to motivate action. It may take some practice, but you can learn to keep up outside appearances now while you also attend to your journey within.

You might have some apologizing to do or, at least, some unfulfilled promises to deliver. Even if your intentions were good, you may have been sidetracked by a variety of circumstances. Now, finally, the hectic pass is calming down. Take whatever time you need to assess your position in a current relationship and make a plan to improve it.

The tension between your need for enjoyment and other people's expectations of you can clash outwardly, even if you try to keep your feelings under wraps. You may be able to maintain emotional detachment for a while, but your true desires will leak out and everyone will know what you truly want. Life will be a whole lot easier if you are honest right from the start.